I had so much of mixed feelings for the recent cosfest (06,07,08....etc).
it makes me feel that every cosfest, I've been constantly changing,and changing ,as a cosplayer, as a teenager(?), as a girl, as a person


That was how I felt.

I lost something, and I've gained something

both are very overwhelming....kinda
I just hate myself for not being straightfoward, for not being courageous enough as what others did
but I'm trying, very slowly.Because I do know that my emotion was always 99% getting in my way...LOL



why did I take it so seriously when its just an event....haha?This is just strrrangeeeeeee *slice my brain up*


Anyway, back to school work, and even MORE plans coming up! XD XD
It's gonna be very challenging, but exciting! wish me good luck!